OMG!!!! i finally am able to sign in this account as i've orgotten my password =D muahahahaha....ok this is sooo exciting...i'm goin to blog about LMS again...oh well

i was angry the first few times i tried to log in when i forgot my password. however i kept trying. The many times of retyping and so on got me irritated and therefore i've decided to transfer my thoughts onto microsoft words instead of the blog. i gave up trying and came back a few weeks later (which is now) and micraculously found the button - forgot your password; click here -.... Oh that line was heavenly...and here i am back in my blog typing this post :D

Well if i'm not wrong, whatever i did in the situated was control. As i studied in the topic anger management, it wasnt a withdrawal because i came back to try a few weeks later. it wasnt an outburst too as i directed my thoughts onto microsoft........well basically i didn allow my primary emotions-which i concluded was impaitience and irritation- to ruin my day...yeap...

in my case, i was angry at a situation or a thing(my lappy) therefore i'm not quite sure i'm able to write much about managing anger as most of what we were taught, was on what happened when you are angry with someone. oh unless u consider one conitive distortion that i did. Which happens to be mind reading that my lappy do not like me - if my lappy has a mind.

in the end, i've decided to go back to my objectives (writing down my thoughts somewhere) and wrote it in microsoft. so i felt that i controlled the situation well =)


ok now i shall copy and paste the original thought i had that day.

Reflective blog-ilikethisfont-I just came back from my ninja camp not too long ago. The 3 day 2 nights camp was held in Palau Ubin and during so, there was one very memorable activity, which challenged me mentally and spiritually. As many know, there is a lot of stories about the supernatural on the island, and also stories behind it and trees.

the font that i like is kristen ITC, but this is besides the point. This post have been written halfway due to some reasons, which i may explain later. But anyway, i shall complete it now.

The activity i was talking about was the night walk. I could still remember the dark night whereby we were asked to walk a forest trail around 12+ in the morning, ALONE. it was totally scary especially if you belief in such things (if you know what i'm talking about). i had to embrace myself because theres no way of escaping in the dark, alone in pulau ubin-which is the exact thing i'm scared of. so i sang a song, in my head, and walk as quietly as i could, hoping that nothing will disturb me if i didn disturb them. And yes my mind ran wild when i saw this white square thing in midst air in the middle of my journey alone. i didn know when my journey would end as we were only given instructions to walk along the trail and a senior would stop us to indicate the end. so i told myself that it was just a signboard. little did i know that this 'signboard' was the end of this trail. It was actually my friend wearing green shirt-which doesnt look anywhere near green in the dark.

from this activity in the camp, i realised how fearful i could be of being in the dark alone esp in such a place and also how my determination, confidence and parts of logical thinking could help me overcome my fears.Though this camp, i'm going to touch on the topic enhancing selfawareness and self-esteem. i felt that i was able to successfully connect with myself in such a dire situation and also the many challenges posed in the camp itself. the activities like the night walk made me walk out of my comfort zone and undertood what i'm capable of and at the same time afraid of. well, having to found a way to overcome my fears, i've learnt to be more independent.

Now, that i'm convinced that the value of my soul is increased (by having more in-dept thoughts and understanding myself better), i respect myself for overcoming all those hard times and this definitly improved my self-esteem. Well after experiencing so much, i realised the ways of enhancing self-esteem could be shortened into a few lines: belief in yourself; love yourself; enjoy being with yourself....because what matters most is still yourself.

ok i shall post some pictures from my camp





























-in attempt to touch on the topic of success- i do agree that the value of success should revolve around family, career, health, love, money and others; however, i feel that route success should also include the kind of choices we make that makes us happy. ok now i shall agrue about my idea

u see the kind of choices we make everyday can affect alot of things in our life, and ultimately determine if we are happy or not. choice - an alternative of doing things - is made when someone is given a variety. like life, there are many different endings to a life. if one wants to have a successful life, he/she doesnt neccessarily needs to make a right choice. This is because we become more satisfied and enjoy our life more when we chose the right choice. However, it's when we chose the 'wrong' one, a more difficult path, then do we really grow.

for example, i felt that i made the right choice when i chose to continue my journey in Red Cross when i joined the Voluntary Instructor Programme. Just this alone gained me many life long friends, a reason to love what i'm doing - serving humanity, learn much essential skills. This chosen route prepared me for success as read in the notes. As an instructor, i learned, trained, have my own network and also know how to present myeself. i love my cca.

Thus, i conclude theres no such thing as a wrong choice for as long as one enjoys what they are doing, appreciate themself; the people around them and the things that happen, they are on their way to being successful. This is because success starts with yourself.

♥ thoughts @ 15:48