retreat was kinda unbusy...so i guess i allowed my mind to wondered around. i wasnt happy with certain things. and certainly my mind did not come into consensus that my kare is from rc. i admit i am still trying to keep work and play on two diff side of the line. and i say its hard. so i concluded that rc will not be the main point in life. not for now, not in the near future. then there was ninja. wasnt too happy w the unorganised get together. wanted change but i guess i'm not up there yet to comment too much. i'm keeping it to myself. ninja isnt the point either.
thus, i've decided that life is meant for me to enjoy. watever it is. i happy 就好. yeah my self-esteem is increasing!!!
probably a balance of both would be nice. but never 50:50. hmmm how bout 40:30:30. don forget relationship is a cca as well. it is soul taxing and smtimes brain taxing too. challenging.

ok away from the serious tone:




wtf i actually passed....totally lyk omg i cant believe it!!! i guess today i'm quite good at acting that i am there...but eh hehe i know the fact...oh and green belt is kinda fun. we get to play with sticks now!! i can sooo poke ppl in the ninja way! beware: do not irritate me =D well at least this shows that if you TRY your grading 2 weeks aft the rest, went to the highest temple on kusu island and write some words related on a ball in marina square; would bring you a change in colour of belt. hmmm kare was there to witness. anyway, here is the evidence that wish DO COME TRUE!...

[oh realised the change in size? NO! that did not mean that i grew fat. same size longer belt higher risk of touching the floor more pumpings bad trainer]

i am happy. esp with the added fun from OA IPT! i totally shd continue in e direction of OA; but i would be funner with batchmates along. breakdown of fun: Funky United Naughty! ok this is sooo crap. description of fun (OA IPT) in next post! i don wana excite myself late at night. too bad half 09 left aft retreat =( oh well....